Lyrics

🎧 This is my Death 🎧
Written by - Kur$ed

(Verse 1)
Hard to smile when everyday you suffer,
You lose hope after a while coz shit keeps getting tougher,
My pain stacked up to the ceilings in piles,
Been running from the pain for miles and miles,
While just trying to find my smile,

(Chorus)
My home is in the skies,
And I stall when I need to rise,
I fall when I need to fly,
I crawl when I get to high, high,

My home is in the skies,
And I stall when I need to rise,
I fall when I need to fly,
I crawl when I get to high, to high,

(Verse 2)
Drugs flowing in my veins trying to find the healing,
These voices in my brain is all I’m hearing,
And I’m so fucking tired of dealing,
Talking to my demons at night cause they keep appearing,
Reminding me that my death is nearing,
Makes my eyes start tearing,

Always feeling low so I’m riding these highs,
It's so easy to make them believe my lies,
So used to silent cries,
I’m sorry I’m not like other guys,
Step in my shoes and try my life on for size,
Come on now dont be shy...

And with my last breath,
This is my death.

(Chorus)
My home is in the skies,
And I stall when I need to rise,
I fall when I need to fly,
I crawl when I get to high, to high,

My home is in the skies,
And I stall when I need to rise,
I fall when I need to fly,
I crawl when I get to high, to high,

(Verse 3)
Ask me why my reflection always dies,
My image stopped mirroring and I can’t deny,
That I’m convinced in the grave is where my body should lie,

I can't even cry...

If I die up in my mind,
Satan is coming from behind,
And this just might be the end,
And I just might run out of time,
I’m tryna to explain my feelings,
But it gets lost inside my mind,

I’m feeling like I am dreaming,
Because Im always hurting inside,
And I am just trying to numb the pain,
Tryna numb all these emotions that are going up to my brain,
I been trying to shut everything out,
I've tried but I've lost count,

(Chorus)
My home is in the skies,
And I stall when I need to rise,
I fall when I need to fly,
I crawl when I get to high, to high,

My home is in the skies,
And I stall when I need to rise,
I fall when I need to fly,
I crawl when I get to high, to high,

(Verse 4)
But Im feeling so pessimistic,
Will I even live out this epidemic?
Feel the thoughts inside my mind,
And I might be suicidal,
It's just a never ending cycle,

But this sickness has fucked me up,
If I don’t make it to the morning,
Then you'll know what's up,
I feel it inside of my chest,
My brain keeps zoning out,
But the demons inside my head
Tell me it’s gonna be a lotta red,

Im feeling the feelings shoot,
Through my soul and my feelings too,
And I act like I have no clue,
But these demons know what I've been through,
Maybe if I was strong like glue,

I wouldn’t be feeling so fuckin blue...

(Chorus)
My home is in the skies,
And I stall when I need to rise,
I fall when I need to fly,
I crawl when I get to high,

My home is in the skies,
And I stall when I need to rise,
I fall when I need to fly,
I crawl when I get to high, to high,

(Verse 5)
If I die right up in this bed,
I’ll be long gone and dead instead,
But I’m fucked up in the head,
Because I already think that I am god dam dead,

And I didn’t believe you,
But now I can't go back,
I always knew what needed to be said,
Should’ve told all my family goodbye,
And my friends Im gonna be dead.

And with my last breath,
This is my death,

This is my death,

This is...